Did You Ever Know That You’re My Hero?

I’m going to bare my soul a bit here.

As much as the last eight years have been rough, there have been moments in the past couple of years that have nearly broken me. I couldn’t eat, could hardly move, and would lay on the couch feeling half-dead, barely conscious, floating on a wave of depression and self-induced malnutrition.

But, I would force myself up, reminding myself of all the incredibly fortunate things I have in my life. I’d sip on a smoothie, shove a spoonful of peanut butter in my mouth and push through because I knew if I could make it over the hump, focus on work, focus on the good things, I would be OK. And I am.

Then, with encouragement from my oldest and dearest friend, I decided to cut myself open over these keys and let it all bleed out. And you showed up for me.

You read. You commented. You messaged. You sent care packages and gifts. You checked in, and you showed me that I was not alone. And that I was loved.

So whether you have been with me since those early gleeful Le Petit Village days or have only recently stumbled upon this space somehow, I want to say thank you. Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for your support, and your words of encouragement because they mean more to me than you can possibly imagine. From the bottom of my broken, healing heart, thank you for being part of my tribe. 

You give me strength. 

11 responses to “Did You Ever Know That You’re My Hero?”

  1. Thank you for sharing yourself and your journey! I have read your blog since you were in Le Petit Village; I can’t remember how I found you. You are going to be okay. You have what it takes to recover from this; I just know you do. There are great things in your future. It might not look like the future you envisioned years ago, but it’s your future.

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  2. You are so strong! Thank you for sharing!

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  3. Thank you for sharing! I’ve been following along since Le Petit Village, when I was an expat in Germany and stumbled upon your blog. I admire your strength through all that you’ve endured. It’s simply not fair that you’ve had to go through all of that, but there’s no doubt that it’s made you a stronger person as a result. You deserve nothing but happiness from here on out. I look forward to continuing to follow along on your new adventures. 🙂

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  4. I’m still following along from the Le Petite Village days. My heart breaks for you, but I am SOOO glad you’re writing again. Over the last few years, my thoughts would sometimes drift to you and Fifty, and I’d wonder how you were and silently wish you well.

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  5. I’ve also been following you from the Le Petit Village and I’m so impressed of your strength. But the only way to cope is to look forward. You are worth so much more than this scumbag you now left behind. 🥰

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  6. Thank you for sharing such personal stuff. And I’m glad we can help in someway. xxx

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  7. You go, girl. I’ve followed (lurked maybe) and silently cheered you on since LPV. What a prime time jackass. The fact that you are still standing and moving forward is amazing. Love the Tupac quote and we’re here for you but you’ll be fine.

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  8. Keep on keepin’ on – you’re doing great ma’am!

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  9. I have been following your adventures since the LPV days and once you left there, wondered what happened but could never have imagined what you are sharing now. We are all rooting for you and wish you happiness, joy and love in your life from now on. Take care and keep on writing!

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  10. Merciiii pour ton authenticité des bisesss d’à côté le petit village

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  11. Love you. But you know that

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