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Maybe the Cruelty Was the Point
Since we’re approaching Christmas, I’m going to tell you about the horrific emotional journey my husband took me on in December 2018. As always, take a deep breath, light a relaxing candle, pour yourself a drink, or do whatever you need to do to center yourself. Prepare to be flummoxed and possibly infuriated. In September […]
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It Never Stops
OK… First off, I’m sorry that this has become my personal vent space, but I haven’t found a therapist that I vibe with yet, and writing about this has been so very cathartic. Also, some recent events in my life have occurred that have forced me to finally do the much-needed emotional unpacking of years […]
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Did You Ever Know That You’re My Hero?
I’m going to bare my soul a bit here. As much as the last eight years have been rough, there have been moments in the past couple of years that have nearly broken me. I couldn’t eat, could hardly move, and would lay on the couch feeling half-dead, barely conscious, floating on a wave of […]
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Burn It to the Ground
You know, when I first found out about ‘her,’ I was so humiliated. I was embarrassed. Ashamed. I didn’t want anyone to know. But why should I be ashamed and embarrassed and humiliated? I’m not the one that did anything wrong. All I did was be patient and loyal for years while I was being […]
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So, what would you do?
What would you do if one day, after years of being lied to, full-on gaslit, you’re confronted with the truth that you always knew to be true? I was done. Over. It had been enough. One too many excuses of why he had to leave again (always promising to come back in a few weeks) […]
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The Gas Light Burns Bright
You know, the thing is, when someone you care about lies to you, your default is to believe them. When your spouse repeatedly lies to you and says, “no, no, no, no, that’s not true, why would I do that,” even if your gut knows, you tell yourself to believe them because you want to […]
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Don't Cry Over Spilled Milk
Don’t cry over spilled milk. That’s what they say. Little did I know that about an hour after I took this photo, I’d be crying over so much more… (I wasn’t sure if I could put it all out there or if I even should. But then I thought, you know what, I’m gonna do […]
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No More Vacations
If you’ve followed me on Instagram over the years, you know that pre-pandemic, I traveled quite a bit. Back and forth from Texas to Dublin, London, and Copenhagen I would go. I’m sure it looked fun, I’m sure it looked fabulous, but it wasn’t, really. These were me trying to hold my marriage together trips, […]
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Moving On
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.” – Tupac Shakur And that’s what I did; I moved the f**k on. Sidebar: I may go […]
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13 Going on 30 (something or other)
I did something crazy. I, an adult woman, got braces. Not Invisalign. Braces. It’s been on the list for a long time but due to life and whatnot (y’all know about all the whatnot), it kept getting pushed further and further down that list. (Except, I will say that a few years back in The […]