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The Gaslighter’s Agenda
I don’t even know if I’m going to hit publish on this or not, but I’m feeling my feels, and I need to let them out, and this space is my therapy, my meditation, my moment of zen. Today, I went to my storage unit and pulled out two large suitcases of G’s clothes. I don’t…
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You Can Run, but You Can’t Hide
Here’s a fun fact about Sweden, everyone’s personal information is available online. Like you want to get someone’s address or phone number, find out their birthday, or even whether they own or rent, Google their name, and BAM. Because of this, a handful of friends and family have kept me abreast of G’s life and…
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Mojo
You know the thing is, like 90% of the time, I’m fine, good even, but when I have to deal with anything that puts me back in Gregory world, where I have to think about him or the ordeal he’s left me in, it messes with my mojo big time. And these past two weeks,…
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Lucky
This is a story about a girl named, Lucky. This is a story about me. I know, I know, it’s hard to believe, right? It’s hard to imagine that through all of the drama, and the gaslighting of the last few years, I would consider myself lucky, but I do. The past few weeks, months,…
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Enough is Enough
You know, nothing really prepares you for seeing a blown-up photocopy of one of your wedding photos in a police file. But there it was, sitting on the table in front of a detective at a Garda station in Dublin. Back in November, I decided that enough was enough. My husband has gotten away with…
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Maybe the Cruelty Was the Point
Since we’re approaching Christmas, I’m going to tell you about the horrific emotional journey my husband took me on in December 2018. As always, take a deep breath, light a relaxing candle, pour yourself a drink, or do whatever you need to do to center yourself. Prepare to be flummoxed and possibly infuriated. In September…
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It Never Stops
OK… First off, I’m sorry that this has become my personal vent space, but I haven’t found a therapist that I vibe with yet, and writing about this has been so very cathartic. Also, some recent events in my life have occurred that have forced me to finally do the much-needed emotional unpacking of years…
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Did You Ever Know That You’re My Hero?
I’m going to bare my soul a bit here. As much as the last eight years have been rough, there have been moments in the past couple of years that have nearly broken me. I couldn’t eat, could hardly move, and would lay on the couch feeling half-dead, barely conscious, floating on a wave of…
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Burn It to the Ground
You know, when I first found out about ‘her,’ I was so humiliated. I was embarrassed. Ashamed. I didn’t want anyone to know. But why should I be ashamed and embarrassed and humiliated? I’m not the one that did anything wrong. All I did was be patient and loyal for years while I was being…
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So, what would you do?
What would you do if one day, after years of being lied to, full-on gaslit, you’re confronted with the truth that you always knew to be true? I was done. Over. It had been enough. One too many excuses of why he had to leave again (always promising to come back in a few weeks)…
It's Me, Sara Louise 